My grandmother passed away this week. I’m grieving a great loss. In my faith tradition, I believe that she is in heaven with no more pain and no more suffering. I keep saying to my friends, “I know that she is completely healed, I know that she isn’t in pain anymore, I know that she is home.”
I know I know I know I knoooow.
But my heart still hurts. I’m still in so much pain. In the middle of a season with lots of joy and celebration, I’m hurting very badly. Every time I hear a Christmas song on the radio, I turn it off. I’m numb to all the excitement of the season. I love looking at Christmas lights. I’m comforted seeing light in the midst of great darkness. Where is my Meme? Why can’t she come back? I’m grieving.
Are you grieving this season? Maybe someone in your life has left this earth, maybe you’re in a difficult relationship with someone, or maybe you don’t see the point in all the excitement. I’m right there with you. Below are a few things that are helping me during this time. Maybe they can help you too.
1. Let yourself grieve. Let yourself cry, scream, shout. Whatever you need to do – as long as you don’t hurt yourself or someone else – let yourself go. Now is not the time to hold back any emotion.
2. Ask for help. I know, this is the part where people could just offer something instead of waiting for you to ask for it, but we all know that doesn’t always happen. The fact is that people don’t know how to help. They don’t know what you need. A lot of people just aren’t good at anticipating the needs of their friends. Being aware of this, you have to ask for help. Now isn’t the time to be codependent and think that you’re bothering someone by asking for help.
3. Be patient with yourself and with your other loved ones who are also grieving. It’s gonna take some time for the pain to subside. Lots of time. You’re gonna feel awful and awkward for a while.
4. Lean into the pain. Sounds weird, but it works. Let yourself feel awful and awkward. Don’t try to ignore the pain or pretend it isn’t there, because that will only make it worse. If you let yourself feel the pain now, you lessen the risk of dragging out the grieving process beyond the healthy point. What’s the healthy point? Only you can decide that. The point here is that you allow yourself to feel the painful emotions. Just make sure that you’re in a safe place and that you don’t hurt yourself or other people in the process.
5. The little things can be triggers for tears. Slow, sappy music in the nail salon, a TV show, a specific restaurant, and certain smells are among the small things that may trigger tears. You don’t have to run away from these triggers, but if you can go ahead and be aware that these bring on tears, you can avoid them or buffer yourself from their effect on you.
6. You’re not alone in your pain, so don’t isolate yourself. Everyone on this planet knows what it’s like to lose someone. You’re not the only one who has felt this pain. I’m not saying this to be rude. I’m saying this because you will be tempted to become isolated, and that is a dangerous place to be in. There are people in your life who know the pain that you feel.
7. Eat your feelings and do what comforts you. You heard me. Jillian Michaels may not be so happy about this one, but this is not the time to think about staying on track with some diet. If you’re craving carbs, pasta, sweet treats, or savory snacks, eat it! Now, you don’t have to become a glutton and you probably don’t want to make yourself sick, but let yourself enjoy the foods that comfort you. If it isn’t food that comforts you, think of something else that comforts you and go do it. Get a pedicure, a massage, go workout, sleep in, watch a movie, etc.
8. Don’t let it hurt you or surprise you if someone grieves differently than you. People grieve differently and experience a wide range of emotions at varying times. If someone isn’t crying at the same time that you’re crying, it doesn’t mean that they don’t care. There will come some moments that the other person is crying and you’re not. That’s okay.
9. When you think about funny things and start to laugh, don’t push away the laughter. You might feel like it’s an inappropriate time to laugh, but it’s okay to laugh. It’s okay to laugh, to cry, to be angry, to feel whatever emotion that you feel.
10. Find ways to talk it out. I know, talking is probably the last thing you want to do. If you don’t feel like talking, don’t. However, if you do feel like it, find avenues to talk about your loved one. Share some memories on your blog or call and talk to a friend. Don’t think you have to keep it all to yourself or hold it in.
I hope these will help you as they have helped me. May the Lord comfort you during this time, and may you find comfort among friends and family.